YAY Today Mindy is coming!!

Mindy, hope you're packing those little kiddies up now so you'll be ready to go by 2. I'm so looking forward to seeing you. I have my phone turned off and will most of the day. Last night they gave James some bad news. That he would have to start paying his own power, they didn't give him a raise, said he can only work 40 hour weeks, and basically they won't need him here soon. So, I talk to him on the phone. He tells me how sad he is, and he feels like a drink. Mentions drinking about 15 times while I'm on the phone with him. Mentions taking a 20thousand dollar check that is yet to get there...OH and he says he's going to say it got lost in the mail. I told him we wouldn't have a future if he started drinking again. Same if he took the 20 thousand dollars. So, we got to joking around, by the end of the conversation he's laughin and eating icecream. So I call him back an hour later, no answer. I call him again. Leave a sweet message for him about how I just wanted to make sure he's ok and all this other sweet stuff. Doesn't answer. So I call him again thinking that by now he's binge drinking. His phone is turned off. So I call his home phone once. No answer. I call it again, it's busy now. He's taken it off the hook. About 15 minutes later I'm on the phone with his sister telling her about how james was talking about drinking etc and he won't answer his phone. He calls me then.. Screaming at the top of his lungs, Why can't you just leave me the f$#* Alone. G*d leave me alone I'm trying to get some F#&$ing sleep. I say now with tears in my eyes...I just wanted to make sure you were ok. and he yells again LEAVE ME THE $*&% Alone. To which I yell, You make it real easy for me never to talk to you again a*&@#$$ back at him and hang up on him. At this point...he's dead to me. I've never had anyone treat me like that. I have my phone turned off, and will most of the day, and weekend. I love you all. I'll turn it on an call you when I can. It might seem odd that I tried to get ahold of him so much, but that's what we both have done this whole relationship. All's he had to do is send a text, I'll talk to you tomorrow. Instead he yelled at me like a crazy person YELLED.... I hate him right now. Still love him,but really I hate him. I love all of you. Sorry, this was just a place to put my feelings. He's such an a$$hole. This behavior was really eye opening. Something I don't want to happen to me, or my children to come. Honestly I think that was the worst day of his life. But come on. he's still doing what he wants to do. Farming. Just not under his terms. I love you all.