Friday, March 13, 2009

I don't know if I told you this ....

But Brig, has a nickname in school. One he chose, one that he writes down at the top of all his papers, homework assign., and tests. He calls himself.....Jim. Cracks me up. He's such a sweet kid, I just love him.

I've been thinking about what a friendless freak I am lately, what in the heck is so wrong with me that I've never been able to make girlfriends? In my head I think I'm a nice person, but what do I come across as to everyone else? Why has it always been so hard for me to make a friend? Just thinking about this because I went to the Relief Society Birthday part last night and felt like a loner like usual. I wish I felt more a part of this ward that I've been in for several years now. I guess you get out of it what you put into it, and I haven't exerted myself enough? Or maybe I'm just a freak. Deep thoughts.
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Anonymous said...

Well, I think that is totally cute about Brig! Slick hair boy is cute too! I am with you on the friendless front but I do believe people "Love" me too when they meet me. My visiting teachers always love me. Ladies in my ward always love me I have even had people cry telling me how much they love me. I isolate myself... I sit by myself at church and I sit by myself at outings, it seems to take a lot out of me to socialize not completely sure why but on one hand what makes them love me is how much I have been through but what makes me isolate is what I have been through if that makes sense. I am not sure how much sense I am making since I am so tired lol! Love you

March 13, 2009 at 8:22 AM
Mindy Bush said...

Becky, I love you. (sniff)

You do isolate yourself, but you are a wonderful friend to have. Have fun hanging out with Holly and the pups today. And little make fun of me girl, being up late with your little Aaron, having that bonding time, is something you will never get to do again. So enjoy it (ha!)

March 13, 2009 at 10:33 AM
LSullivan said...

Try and smile and say hi more. I remember a man in my old ward said I always look forward to seeing you, you always have a smile for me. I wish I could say I am an expert. It has been far more difficult for me in this ward also. I truly think my calling has helped me fit in in both wards more than anything else. Mindy, pray that women in your ward will be drawn to you as a friend as they get to know you through your lessons. To know you both is to love you. I agree it is really hard to extend yourself. It is even harder if you feel like people are judging you or have made assumptions about you without even getting to know you. Sometimes that is our own perception, when really people are a little self involved and don't really take the time themselves to get to know you. Remember you are all amazing loveable women with so much to offer. You are inspirational in so many ways to me, each of you. The Bradshaw girls were always a little intimidating to other girls because of their incredible beauty talent etc. jk. I love you!

March 13, 2009 at 3:15 PM

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